And the city is falling in dust and struggle, people pushed down by the hardship of their work and people trying to raise their voice for justice, for development, for ways out of the deep crisis. But people of the city are, many of them, trying to find ways just for themselves out of the crisis, it seems like against the fall of the country, people are developing an egoism to keep themselves on the good side, not to do something for everybody's good. There is so much money-mindedness here; the economy is falling lame and people talk about collecting money, war is spreading and people talk about building themselves big houses with money taking under the hand or earned outside the country, the boat is sinking and people are denying to look and help each other. But people are there to help and share. One family has kind of adopted me, and they are one of the most honest and truest people I can imagine to meet. We all stay together in one room of a small old house, my two girl friends Sharmila and Bimala, their grown-up brothers Prem and Raju, one small sister that we found lost on the street and who claims to have no mother and father, and me. Mother and father, Amma and Bua, are running a small tea and khana (food) restaurant just behind the Paropakar orphanage where I have more and less been involved in since the very beginning. We always assemble there, friends from paropakar and around and the family. The river of Kathmandu, the Vishnumatti river, in front of our place, is drowning in rubbish and leakage and the blood and bones of slaughtered buffaloes, so now that the heat has come, the air is filled with bad smell, drinking water is a big problem everywhere and pollution is coming down in dusty clouds. But what there is is pure caring, I am like their own daughter and whatever bad and corrupted people and intentions, how many people gone mad and how many turned into alcoholics - they stand like soft fortresses against it with hearts so big that it could embrace the universe. Raju who had to quit school in grade 8 to help earn the family's living is the most simple, most peaceful and stable person ever. His heart is clean and attentive, never asking for anything for himself. He comes home from a hard working day and is happy just to listen to music, probably really tired, but when I again start looking for whatever it may be that I cannot find in our small shared space, Raju will stand up and ask and whether that thing is important or not, he will turn all clothes and places for it, and when it is found, he will never even think of any thankfulness or reward. His hard work is to help his family also, "whatever you say, Amma, I will do", he once said to his mother. Prem is the funniest joker I'ver ever met, and the best, because he can be serious as well. It takes him 1 hour to finish his rice, either because he is talking during it, reciting poems or just enjoying the rice so much, many times Amma and Bua have to wait with closing the shop because Prem is giving a performance of any kind, as a poet, a comedian, a tai-chi-master (really) or as a singer, and we all stand laughing. Sharmila and Bimala also do their own thing, the one studying so hard - getting up at 5 in the morning and sleeping at 10 or 11! Sharmila 's thinking: "We have to stand on our own feet, whatever it takes, I will try to do things alone and go my own way, even if it is struggle, and I will stand by my friends, because friendship is deep and unique and the most most important of all!" In the evening, after staying in paropakar with the children, hanging around nearby with paropakar friends, coming back from the street children organisation or from friends' places ( with friends mostly meaning families whose children I met on the street, who are working children or living in hard conditions, who I got to love so much) we go home together in our small common room while Amma and Bua stay to sleep in the in the small hotel ... I am often having long talks with Amma because in the hard struggle of her love she has come to know and understand many things, and she wories about me like about her own child. Bua, though so quiet, so simple, is always worrying that I don't eat well, and tells me to eat sooo much... I have to smile every time because this is his way of expressing love. Maybe good people are always those who live in most simple circumstances. Simple would be right, but this is poverty; but never, never would they ask anything from me, they care without any intention, share the tiny space they have, the food even if it shouldn't be enough for themselves, whatever they have they are willing to give, asking me always about my whereabouts. And because of this, because there is pure giving, I want to give to them - both a true giving from the heart. Somehow, in this city of misery and losing mystery, I came to this tiny hotel, and it became like a sort of Nepali home. This family believes strongly in God and they found through their belief and trust in God so much strength. Sometimes I feel that yes, it must have been that god that the forces of the sky and the earth and the hearts of the people brought me to stay here. And brought me somehow also to these other people who I met in their very tough struggle for life, for their very survival. I feel so much love for them. It makes me sad that in the time I spent in Nepal I couldn't be there often for all of them, and that now I soon have to leave. The circumstances in the country make it very difficult to travel to villages, so I stayed near Kathmandu most of the time, leaving sometime for the countryside in the valley. Nepal's countryside, these villages, are most beautiful, and life and people are simple as I would dream the world to be. Every time it ends up to be about one thing: about the people. Every time it ends up to be about one thing: about love and sharing.
dear Eric, Khorrum and friends. I wish all the best to all of our family, that it will become an even stronger unity that in Delhi this December like before. love you still. Shova Kamana Andrea Juliette
read Andrea Juliette's Letter from after the project |
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